It turns out I never understood you. Maybe I don't really love people; maybe I was just afraid of being alone and wanted someone to keep me company. At first, it was so sweet and happy, but when problems arose, it was so heartbreaking and disappointing. I couldn't communicate when I could. I can talk freely with other people, but I can't with you. I'm nervous, I'm worried, I lack confidence, I'...

I fell in love with you a second time in 2021. You were my bes, and I was your bes. We were best friends first, anything else second. At least, that's what we said at the start. We dreamt of so many things together--of Sweden's night sky, of Joshua Tree National Park, of couple cosplays, gaming in our future home, listening to the rain together, holding each other. But I was afraid of many thi...