Why I thought that I can change you or even accept you fully? For a long time I was fooling myself with illusions which I was meticulously trying to swap with thoughts that I believed I could ignore. As said, I beared a lot of shame, uncertainty, anxiousness and endless doubting. You felt like a soulmate but now I know it was just a trauma triggering. Something so familiar, so “at home”. Despit...

It all started out warm, friendly, and intense. Amazing time away together, great conversation, mutual support. It suddenly ended because they couldn't take on a relationship, "...like this," but they still wanted to be friends, then ghosted me. I am told they are an Avoidant personality. I don't know and can't spend time analyzing it anymore. I am moving on and learning from what clues I have ...

We met when I was fourteen and she was thirteen. At that age, you do not understand when something important has begun. You only know that some people feel familiar before you understand why. She was that person for me. We grew up together through awkward teenage years, first jobs, college classes, and late-night conversations about futures we were too young to fully imagine. We married in 1999...