...am letzten Tag, als wir beieinander sein konnten bekam ich eine kleine Pflanze im Bierbecher von dir zum Geburtstag geschenkt. Ich habe mich immer wahnsinnig sehr über deine Geschenke gefreut. Sie waren das Besonderste was mir je ein Mensch geschenkt hat. Als ich dir nochmal nah sein konnte wußte ich leider nicht, dass es das letzte Mal sein sollte. Ich hätte dir noch viel zu sagen geh...

Since birth, I have loved my family, especially my mother, because she is and will be the person who gave me life without me asking for it, it's something that gives my story its touch. A couple of years ago, I realized that a mother is actually the same as a friend who leaves you stranded in a dark alley when you need more of their presence, and that was when I knew I was a trans boy, I though...

S, I am writing this for myself because our connection mattered. I hoped that it would become more, and it hurts that it cannot become what I wanted. I want to honour those feelings while giving myself permission to move on, instead of ruminating and exhausting myself in the hope that you change your mind. Meeting you showed me what it was like to truly connect with someone. As someone with v...